…In the Words of Those Who Have Been Here
Repairing oppressive, squirrel misapplication
After examining thoroughly the existing scene as regards the Church, I came to the conclusion that to try and move up the Bridge at Flag or an AO would result in a very real PTS situation. However, not being satisfied with a theoretical answer, I went further and took the first steps back into the Church. Immediately, I was back into the nightmare of David Miscavige’s empire of Squirrel Ethics, Policy and Tech. It was acutely enturbulating, and I could see plainly that I was not only flirting with disaster, but walking straight into the teeth of personal ruin: damage to my case, health, happiness, ability to think, and my financial well-being.
After nearly 20 years in the Sea Org, when I disconnected from the C of S a few years ago — I immediately experienced a resurgence of Cause. Overnight I regained numerous OT abilities, abilities I hadn’t seen for years. This was a huge, sweeping and remarkable difference. So I continued to observe my progress on the OT Scale, and I gauged the validity of my path by the resulting increase or decrease thereon.
As LRH says, everyone is somewhere on the OT Scale.
And also as LRH says, the OT levels are not the only route to OT. There is also demonstration of competence. And I found there was a direct connection between acting to maintain my personal integrity and Cause level (which perforce includes remaining disconnected from suppressive people and groups) and my consequent happiness,
stability, effortlessness, and OTness.
A crossroads came when I really had to choose between going back into the Church (going PTS and forfeiting my integrity) or remaining “out.” Going back into the Church meant MAYBE one day having the chance to resume the OT levels). But that was a big “maybe.” Furthermore, I was told the only way to get there was to accept more wrong condition assignments — and frankly, I am no longer willing to accept a single assignment of a wrong condition. That is David Miscavige’s standard operation to enslave and make people effect. He brings them down to his level by accusing them of “out ethics” (a generality) and then assigning them wrong conditions. You rapidly go effect and then you’re done. The only alternative to that was to remain “out”, doing the right thing, maintaining my integrity and refusing to sink down into the mire of being PTS to Miscavige and the groups under his direct influence.
Since Miscavige is a suppressive person, and since his orders influence every aspect of Sea Org life, the group itself has been subverted and has become to that degree a suppressive group because they enforce suppressive orders instead of Scientology.
It was a tough decision, but I decided to do the right thing, keep my integrity, remain disconnected from DM’s suppression. Soon I wasback at Cause. Then came Marty who offered his services as a tech terminal.
In all the years I was in the SO, most of them spent at the Int Base, I didn’t move a single inch up the Bridge. And I was right on Miscavige’s lines. Oh, he made sure I went in session, though!
That’s right: Miscavige ordered I get in session, but only to redo rundowns I had already done. LRH called that “executive C/Sing” and it was outlawed as gross Out Tech. Letting any executive C/S (arbitrarily ordering case actions when they are not qualified nor have they done any folder study is illegal as hell and 100% OUT TECH). But that never stopped Miscavige.
So I spent months re-doing actions I had already done to a good result the first time. And if you know anything about the Tech, you know that having pcs repeat actions is a flagrant auditing error, tantamount to auditing with the meter turned off.
Fast forward to my visit with Marty. He rapidly sorted out my location on the Bridge, reconstructed my pc folders (since my actual folders are still at Int and are certain to remain there), did the necessary review and BANG he got me started on my next Bridge action, 100% correct. Now I’m flying! Actually moving up the Bridge for the first time in more than 20 years.
The Bridge IS the basic program for all people. The technology is spectacular.
Yet none of this was hard to do. Standard Tech is never hard. What’s hard is Out Tech! Receiving auditing while you’re being suppressed by DM directly or indirectly, grinding away on rundowns you’ve already done, auditors who are applying his squirrel version of LRH Tech. That’s hard.
I don’t think anyone can move up the Bridge within the Church unless you have a limitless supply of cash. They are on people endlessly for illegal donations for IAS, SuperPower, Ideal Org buildings, etc. All in heavy violation of LRH Policy and the very purpose of orgs. If nothing else, you’re going to go PTS and you can’t audit over a PTS condition. You can’t make case gain while connected to a person or group who is being suppressive.
So I’m really glad, because I see now by choosing to do the right thing, I have ended up getting everything.
These days you can’t stay in the Church and go OT. You’re just going to go broke and PTS. never had a better, more standard auditor than Marty. He’s the best.
Handling invalidation and rehabbing gains
I want to thank you for the best 2 days since leaving the Sea Org 12 years ago. Absolutely the best thing I have done since leaving is connecting up with you. I have continued to blow charge of the self invalidation since leaving four days ago. I realized that I am in great shape and I have rekindled the purpose for me.
Just being able to talk about what happened to someone who was actually there without the fear of being clobbered was a relief. Just simple two way communication about my feelings and what was going on at the time has blown the guilt I have had for 12 years since leaving friends behind and feeling that their demise was my fault. I know now that it was the right decision to make for me and my children. I know that I have absolutely without a doubt no anger towards my friends there and that they were just doing their jobs as best they knew how; all for the purpose of protecting LRH tech thinking, however wrong, that I was a threat to them and their survival. Little do they know that I truly am the wrong target but you do not see this if you are in the midst of the storm itself.
Hearing your perspective cleared even more up for me about LRH and the insanity at Int. I received so many life changing wins and gains from LRH technology during the 25 years I practiced Scientology. I do not feel I was duped by LRH or Scientology in the least. You rekindled my entire bridge; as some things I have heard over the years had put little thoughts that lead to self invalidation. I know the tech works and I am a living example of that. Just the few short sessions that we had confirmed what I knew all along. I have survived in an environment all by myself and I am a living breathing example of that without any tech to guide me along.
Your life that you have built in Texas is refreshing. Monique is absolutely terrific and I thoroughly enjoyed our conversations. Again thank you for being there for me.
This is the Session!
In two intensives I totally handled a hang up that had nagged me all of my life. Thirty years of psychotherapy had only made it worse. Now it is gone!
What this has done for me is so big. We’ve removed so much invalidation and suppression on my own
knowingness and beingness. I can just know and be without being afraid or having to defend or worry about what others will think or how they will react or even whether or not they can have it. I am excited about life and about the future and how I am going to use and be my newly re-acknowledged self. It’s awesome.
New OT V really does handle the living lightning. I’ve been looking forward to this action for years and finally experienced it for myself. WOW! It is powerful, just as everyone says. Truly amazing technology, not a rehash of anything lower on the Bridge. It’s a whole new level of discoveries.
One thing I heard people often say is that they experienced bigger gains per minute on NOTs than on lower Bridge actions and I can now attest this is true. As you move up the Bridge the gains get bigger.
It is a beautiful, beautiful level. Marty’s tech is superb. I never had any attention on the auditor or the metering. I was 100% in session in a 100% distraction-free environment. That is truly an ideal scene.
No crazy hassling by registrars and MAAs to overspend, donate, run up debt on my credit cards. Just 100% Standard Tech!